leaving

halo!

gila ya udah lama banget i abandon this blog, and so much sorrow its been written here.so i'm about to leave, leaving Jakarta in agustus, 4th. for 2 weeks and i'll be back to celebrate lebaran.after that i'll be leaving like forever for college maybe after 6month so i can come back here or maybe when there is like a long looong holiday so i can get back home.my feelings right before my departure is so uncomfortable, i don't feels right but still the life must go on.
remember when i told you, people......about how much i want to breakout from my house?go somewhere far away?get lost?go to the unspecific place that you can even found it on a map?without cellphone?
well i dont want that right now.i want my house, and i want still gather around with my family.because for better or worst they still your family.

and remember when i tell you how much i hate my family? well i choking my own words back.i love 'em in spite of yelling fact and disturbing voice in the early morning i still love 'em.

back to when i said that, i was immature and kind of don't know what i want.
and

when i tell somebody to pushed me down from the cliff........andbkjla FGONF why do i ever wanted that?silly me.

well, i already feel like a douchebag like months ago, a year ago, i was so bored . but now? no, i kinda enjoy my alomost-last day here in a place that you called (*home sweet home)

when you know your leg is going to loose tomorrow,what you gonna do?are you gonna sit and crying about it. No! you're gonna jump, make big leap and make a great air kicks -How i met your mother

so that's the point, i'm not gonna sit and crying about my leaving.so i have a quality time with nggg myself yesterday, i go wherever my feet wanna go but well i still go to the same mall near my house.i kinda sit and enjoy my meal even it meal for couple and i eat it only for myself.i go the store that i never visit before, i ask the shopkeeper about the question that might be embarrass me or their. but pffff enjoy your butt.

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agak lebai ga sih gue nulisnya?serasa gue mau pergi kemanee gitu ya?cuman yaaa itu yang gue rasain deep deep down in my heartttzz.abisnya coba lu liatpost-an gue beberapa tahun lalu. yang lo baca apa?tulisan gue yang nggg sok-kocak apa hilarious gitu kan?sekarang mah gue udah males gitu nulisnya.datar gitu dah hidup gua.
jadi mungkin gue akan menelantarkan blog ini beberapa saat sampe suatu hari gue ga ada kerjaan baru gue nulis lagi.
SOOOOOoooOOooo i LOVE YOU PEOPLE!